My New Dawn

Hiding in the midnight
I've watched life pass me by.

Haunted by each heartbreak and mistake I've let weigh me down.

But now it feels like
This is my new dawn.

My yesterdays have come and gone.
Walked in the dark too long.
This is my new dawn.

I've washed my hands now,
I've laid down all my doubt.

I see the sun rising, baptizing,
and shining straight into my soul.

Just like a child, suddenly everything's new.

The colors collide, and I see a beautiful view.
Now I feel alive...

Reevaluating

Being on vacation for the past couple of weeks has really given me a lot of time to think about things...maybe TOO much time.

Have you ever taken a few moments to stop and look at the world around us?  Honestly, sometimes this world breaks my heart.

We have become such superficial people, where the mentality is very "me, me, me."

I don't know why, but somehow I have become more sensitive.  I don't want to live in a world like this. 

Yesterday, I was walking down the street, all the way to the right, and there were 3 people heading towards me taking up the entire sidewalk.  As I approached, not one of them moved.  In fact, the girl that I was ready to run into looked at me with such a sour look on her face.  How dare I make her have to move out of the way?

I know that sounds silly, but it is simple selfishness like this that is beginning to make me lose faith in people.  This type of behavior happens all too often.

Pick up a newspaper.  Every day there is another story of someone being murdered, robbed, or cheated.

It also pains me to see that a few of the people that I even call my friends are somewhat heartless, or cruel.  I hate it when i hear them criticize people around us for not looking a certain way, or just generally make snide comments about things that really shouldn't matter in the grand scheme.

It makes me not want to be around them.

I have a hard time even logging into Facebook anymore, as so many of the status updates break my heart.  If it isn't someone saying, "Look at me, and how I am so much better than you," then it's people complaining about not getting their way, or judging others, or just negative in general.

It's very depressing. 

I have just gotten to the point where I don't like living in this type of world.  I know that it's been this way for awhile now, but maybe I am just finally getting tired of it all.

Or, maybe it's just that I am more sensitive during the holiday season.  Christmas is kind of a rough time for me, and I can't wait until its over.

I am not perfect myself.  I am sure that I have been guilty of some of these actions, and just the thought of it makes me sick:  the thought that I may have contributed to someone else's pain.  It's like a punch to my gut.

Sorry, I just needed to vent.  I don't mean to be negative myself, but I just needed to get some feelings out.

However, I do realize that there are also many great people out there.  Some of my friends are such amazing people that really uplift me.  They are kind, caring, and make me very happy to be around them.

Those are the people that I look to when I lose faith in the human race. 

And some of you other bloggers (and readers) out there are very inspirational to me.  Your kind words say more about you than you may ever know.

Can you imagine what would happen if we all started treating each other with respect, and kindness was the law of the land?

What if we all took an extra beat or two to think about how our actions are going to affect someone else before we acted?

Say "I am"

During this holiday season, with the hustle & bustle of gift-buying, the many parties, or the general business of it all, please remember to think of others.

Not only during this season, but all year long.  Think of this before you judge:  You never know someone's story.  You might not know what they have been through...or, are going through.

A cruel word can crush a person, but a kind word may save someone.