I'm hoping some of you can relate, so that it makes me feel a little more 'normal'... HAHA!
I ran into an 'Ex' of mine yesterday while walking home from the train after work. However, this wasn't just any 'ex.'
This was someone that I loved with all my heart...
He was walking down the sidewalk with his new boyfriend. They had clearly been shopping, as he had a "Threadless" bag in his hand. It is hard for me to look the new boyfriend in the eye, as he is much better looking than i am, taller, has bigger muscles, prettier eyes, etc... But whatever...
It really WAS good to see my 'ex', and it was very pleasant. We exchanged 'hello's and he asked "What are you up to these days?"
I answered very casually, "Just working, running, etc..."
I wanted to say...
"I randomly still think of you a few times throughout the week. Every time i hear a song that we loved, or someone talks about a movie that we saw together, it conjures back those memories.
Whenever I see something or hear something that I know you would enjoy, it makes me want to call or text you, because I know you would love it. But I dont, because that would be inappropriate.
Right after we decided to break things off, I still would constantly look at my phone to see if I had missed a call or text from you, saying that we had made a mistake.
When I think about going on a trip to a city that we had been to together, I remember all the fun we had, and the things that we did...
Sometimes in conversation with friends, I have to catch myself from saying, 'Oh, ___ and I used to...' "
But no. I just said that things are fine, chatted a couple more minutes, and walked home.
It's good to see that he's moved on and found new love.
Don't get me wrong...I am very happy for him. They really do make a great couple!
Sometimes, it's just tough to see your past relationships move on so easily, no?
'Don't you even have the slightest feelings left for me?'
This encounter was so friendly, and so comfortable, almost as if, to him, we had never even been together in the past... 'Did you forget about the passion between us? Did you ever even miss me afterwards? Come on, give me SOMETHING!!!'
Thank you for letting me share a vulnerable moment. I mean, we all have them, right?
Now, back to our regularly scheduled blog...
Love you all!